Through the Pain

I feel hurt.
For I know that, between you and me, you'll always be the chosen one.
And I'll always be left behind.
Even now, I can't walk by your side, I'm always seeing your back as you walk away.
Even then, I know: I could never blame one of you.
Because I like you both, and I love you both.
And this hurts me even more.
For I couldn't even rely on hate to relieve this empty feeling in my heart.
To love you both is my bless, and yet, my curse.
Maybe I had the worst sentence. Maybe I had the worst luck.
I guess I was too spoiled by both of your smiles.
I thought they would always turn upon me.
And now I see it from such a great distance as you smile for each other.
And I feel cold and dead without the warmth of your eyes, with this jealousy slowly corroding my heart.
Maybe this is just me being selfish, wanting both of you all to myself.
Even though, I deeply feel that I can't monopolize any of you.
And I myself don't want to do it, for your freedom is my joy.
So turn your face towards me once again, for I have one last thing to show you and one last thing to tell you.
Can you see it, my beloved ones?
Though my heart feels empty, my soul is so fulfilled by love for you that this feeling is overflowing...
And this is my tears.

So don't mind me, and know this: I love you, and I bless you.